It Has Been Awhile

It has been awhile since I last wrote you. I have thought about you; I have missed you. So, I am reaching back out to you.

Remember I talked about my neighborhood and the homeless guy that created a life in the carport of the house next door? That house is now being renovated and he had to go. I still see him walking up and down my street with his cart full of recycling so he still lives somewhere close by.

Lolly is sitting on my lap as I write this. She now comes to me for affection and doesn't growl in response to kisses on her head. She continues to heal from the wounds caused by her abusive past but has made tremendous headway.

Chihuahuas are the only dogs with the ability to make tears. Poppy has never done it but Lolly, even being part Jack Russell, does. The darker spots under her eyes is because her fur is wet from them. She will look at me with love and tear up!

I have been on a dating website for a couple of weeks now. It's been interesting! Fun, too. I give it a thumbs up. The trick is to be happy first so that anything else that comes along is icing on the cake.

Work has been fantastic, as always. No job is perfect but mine is pretty damn close to it! I can thank the people I work with for that. We are a healthy growing organization and I am proud to be a part of it.

It rained for a solid 2 weeks. We finally saw the sun again a couple of days ago. Instead of feeling depressed by it, I got anxious and wired. It is good to see the sky blue again.

For those that have read my posts about my mother, she's hanging in there! At 83 she is still in her home and driving. My younger sister and I tag team making sure one of us has either spoken to her or seen her that day. 

I've talked about everything but my health so here it goes. You know I have had thyroid cancer and then a closed head injury. I recovered from both so now there is something new. I have seen 5 health professionals about it, so far. Hopefully I am closer to an answer than before. I have one more that I am awaiting an appointment to be made and that is with an infectious disease doctor. At this point, I have had to talk about it so much that I am sick of talking about it. I'll just say that my symptoms of lower back pain and cyclical low grade fevers has been going on since last September. Aspirin is the only thing that has been taking the edge off. Some days are more difficult to function than others, but can't we all say that?

You are basically caught up now. Wait! One more thing. This year is my 40th High School reunion. I am not going to attend. It really wasn't the best time in my life so why experience it all over again? Some classmates are very excited about it but then again they still call each other by the nicknames they gave each other in High School.

Ok. Now you are caught up. Well, I do want to say one more thing. I am happy. The world is turning to shit because of our asinine president and my health is in question, but I am happy. Content. You know who I can thank for that? Jim. He taught me the principles of how to do that. I put them into practice.

Match Me Up!

Over the 4th of July weekend I joined eHarmony.  It was free so I figured what have I got to lose?  As it turns out, I have lost some money and some contentment.

I ended up shelling out some cash because otherwise I could not see my matches' pictures.  What the hell?!  How would I know if I am reading information about a Boris Karloff lookalike or Ryan Gosling's twin?  Looks aren't everything but they are something.

My next question is...can these men really be this active?  They play golf and tennis and that is when they are not kayaking or working out.  They are sailing and fishing and that is after they have just finished riding their motorcycle from coast to coast.  They love day trips and jetting off to Europe is a terrific getaway.  I know I am introverted and that kind of curtails activities that involve a lot of other people, but this all is making my head spin.  They love to make everyone laugh, they are great with their finances, and if they weren't so busy making their nearly adult or adult children the center of their attention they would have already cured HIV.

When I finally walk in the door after a long day at work and the commute,  I am greeted by the two cats and the dog.  I pick up Poppy who is hopping around wildly and while I am being treated to kisses, kisses, and licks I more often than not make a straight path to the bathroom where Poppy is put back on the floor.  Having finished taking care of me, I take the Popster for a walk.  That takes about 20 minutes.  Once back in the house, all of the critters are fed.  After that, I do whatever cleaning up is needed and then I think about dinner for myself.  Maybe I can start to relax between 7:30 and 8:00 pm.  I am exhausted and just want to put my feet up.

On the weekends I am running errands, doing laundry, cleaning the house if I can motivate myself, and giving some time to my mother.  There are pockets of time for the beach and a movie.  Maybe here again I run my life differently because I am an introvert.  I have to have down time.  I can only recharge that way.  If I could find a friggin dominoes player I would love to do that but there aren't any dominoes groups that I can find and I have looked.  What is my passion, you ask?  Writing.  I love to write.  Now there is an activity everyone can enjoy doing together.

So, back to these men.  When I have talked about this to friends and relatives they ask me if I really think they do all the stuff they say they do.  Just because I am an honest person doesn't mean everyone else is and I so often forget that.  It is not surprising to me that just one man since I joined that holiday weekend has contacted me.  At the same time, it was stressing me out!

Phooey on that.  I am so Type A and goal orientated that I had to take a step back and force this into perspective.  If no one reaches out to me, then so be it.  If no one gives me an online smile back to the one I send, then...so be it.  If I never meet anyone through this mother effing website, then so be it!